Life is Short

How Much Time in a Life

I read an article on SubStack. One lifetime = 4000 weeks = 76 years. It’s finite, and we might not even get all 76 years. Love yourself. Life is short - Live it well. (atleast your family proud of u).

Unemployed

More accurately, I haven’t found an internship yet. I’m confident in my technical knowledge, specifically as a backend dev with Java Spring Boot. A search shows hundreds of jobs paying >$1,500-$3,000 per month, but they require 5-15 years of experience. Happiness is simply being able to go home, but choosing this field means no jobs in my hometown. Fortunately, my hometown is nearby.

I just want to say that I’m hoping for a job in my field. I’m a final year student, so how could I have experience? Without intern/fresher positions, how can I apply?

But that’s just talk. As Đen raps, “When you love life, life will love you passionately.” Or as Ngọt sings, “Yesterday’s sorrows are today’s jokes.” Recently I was so stressed my heart was racing, nearly hyperventilating because I thought I’d missed my internship deadline. But I was confusing it with an earlier date. My deadline is still two weeks away.

Sending signals to the universe to find a job paying $250/month, and I’ll give up coffee until I’m 28.

Loneliness

It’s been a long time since my breakup, and I haven’t had any relationships. Honestly, I’ve barely seen people at all. I haven’t been to campus for nearly half a year because I completed my courses and am just waiting for an internship. It’s quite stressful feeling like I’m wasting my college years without making any impact.

Optimism

I broke my ceramic cactus pot. It was quite expensive, but I don’t regret it because I feel it stayed with me long enough—about a year. Like a human life cycle, everything eventually ends, friends and family will leave us. What matters is the time we spend together.

Relaxation

Music saves my soul.